And they were glad
I must say that this journey to spend 100 days focusing only on being glad has been more difficult than I had anticipated. For some reason I started the day with a feeling of dread and disparity. Obviously those feelings couldn’t stay if I was going to maintain my goal of 100 days of gladness. I started by searching for scripture #5 under the word “glad” in the topical guide of my scriptures. I found 1 Samuel 11:9 “and they were glad”. There it was in black and white, so I had to apply that to my life.
Unfortunately life had gotten in the way more than 6 months ago when we found black mold in our bathrooms & we began the process of working with our insurance company to resolve the problem. One would think that this far after finding the issue it would be nothing but a distant memory. However, that isn’t the case. The insurance company had determined that the cost of repairs was one price & the contractors had decided on another. This difference was almost as significant as the width of the Grand Canyon and had created more than a little stress for my family.
After all these months of trusting in the process I guess I had reached my max and allowed myself to feel overwhelmed by everything. By nature, I don’t allow things to get and keep me down, but today I had justified my feelings of distress. If I hadn’t already started this “glad” experiment I would probably have allowed myself to have one major pity party, but gratefully I had started this process & I never walk away from a reasonably set goal.
Of course today required more than just a commitment to this goal; it required me to really believe that being “glad” in all things is a worthy pursuit. I can honestly say that my focus on “glad” helped turn a rough day into a great day. I decided to attend the temple this morning & I found great peace while I was there. I used some of my time to offer up prayers for some divine help. Although nothing immediately changed with my insurance issues, I found complete peace and so I knew that eventually all would be well.
When I returned home I still felt calm and assured that things were going to be alright even though I could not imagine how that was going to come to pass. Rather than allowing myself to get back to stressing about life I chose to enjoy a lengthy nap. Two hours after beginning my rest, I received a phone call from the insurance adjuster who helped put my mind at ease. He explained that he and the contractor were able to come to terms on the repairs & my long wait was about to come to a close. I now can honestly say that I am “glad”. How grateful I am that I began this journey – I would certainly prefer to spend my time, energy & thoughts on being glad, rather than focusing on the negatives.